A Life Seen Through My Eyes.

Goodbye Melody!

2011-08-14T08:16:00.001-07:00

Yes I sold her, it has been at least a couple weeks now, just dident want to talk about it. She has a fabulous new owner, a little girl who deserves her, probably a lot more then I do. I brought her back from the brink of death, and now it is this girls turn to bring out her full potential, something I just do not have the time for.

I want to concentrate on my rabbits who take less time and are a lot less expensive. Not to mention I really want to concentrate on my family and school. I just finished my second Mod, so I now have three more to go now that I am in my third Mod, the easiest mod, thank god!

I miss Melody, it's hard to go into the barn and not see her in there, not hear her. Although my heart has been broken, i feel as if it was for the best. My son deserves all that we can give him, and having another mouth to feed especially a horse was becoming to much for us to handle. Not to mention, no one rents a house with enough space for a horse.

Sean's job is going great and we are finally out of the hole we have been in. Still looking for a house to rent, it's a lot harder then I thought. We need at least three bedrooms and a garage and a land lord who allows animals. I'll be screwed if I can't continue with my Rabbitry.

There is not much to say really, I have a rabbit show coming up on the 2oth I'll post my results then.

Got My First Negative Preg test-Sad face

2011-07-27T19:54:00.000-07:00

Yes sean and I started trying to conceive, First month did not go so well and I got a negative Preg test yesterday, and my Monthly cycle Started today, boo. Oh well it's just a matter of time, and in reality I kind of wanted to get pregnant in August. I want a spring/summer baby, so in the end it will all work out.

Have to admit I was slightly disappointed though that it was negative, was really hoping this was it, that it would be that easy. But it took me six months with my first, I have no doubt it will take me at least a couple months. First of my cycle needs to become regular which is really has not for the last 18 months, I mean I always have a 28 day cycle, but I do have two periods a month all most every month.

I figure with this one good cycle, all the birth control will be gone from my system and we should be set to go! Let's hope.....

Um hmm let's see what else is new.

Got a 100% on my first Aide test, got bored during class, learned absolutely nothing haha, well nothing that I remember, ummmmmmm oh yea my son hates his big boy bed, Baby gaga is full of Drama but I'm addicted to it and the sometimes helpfulness, Really need to get my ass working on my website and actually being a useful part of it, and finally trying to conceive sucks.

That would be about it....

A Hard and Painful Decision!

2011-07-24T18:12:00.001-07:00

Ugh I am close to tears right now, it's horrible. I have been delaying it for months, knowing it was going to have to happen sooner or later.

I put melody up for sale today, only had the heart to do one website for now. I feel pretty shitty right now, because I basically lied to her. I promised her a forever home, and here I am some years later putting her in the classifieds. My money is just so tight right now, and I wont ever be able to afford boarding, it would be impossible. Not to mention when would I even have time to ride her.

I love her so much she has brought such joy to my heart. I have laughed with her, cried with her, smiled with her. She gave me the courage t

o trust again, she filled the hole in my heart that was left after my Asin died.

I will never forget my baby girl, and I can only hope for the rest of her day's she brings joy to some other person, she teaches them the great lessons she has taught me.

I gave her a bath today, and ran around with her. Just thinking soon when she is gone, there will be an empty barn, and it will be so quiet without here. I truly will have nothing left here at this house, and I will be more then ready to say goodbye to it.

My heart is breaking agian, and I'm not ready to say goodbye, but I have no other choice. with trying for another baby and medical school, My baby girl will need to find a new home.

Nothing happy to share in this blog, it was a horrible day all around.

A Married Women.

2011-06-24T18:02:00.000-07:00

Our Wedding was simply wonderful, yes i messed up on my vows, no surprise but over all it was awesome. A lot of people never showed which was disappointing, but it was never about anybody else. It was about uniting with my now husband, and becoming eternily his for life. My dress turned out amazing, I fit in it perfectly, thank god because I was worried I wouldn't. Joshua was a doll throughout the whole thing, even smiled for the camera. He stayed put the entire ceremony which wasn't long, actually now that I think of it, he stayed quiet the whole time as well.

Oh yea I made it into Ross, so I graduate 1-12-2012! I will be a CMA ( certified medical assistant) Well of course I have to take my certification test, but I could work just as a MA, but I think I'll go the extra mile and actually take the test, if I don't get hired into my externship site.It was my first week this week, and I made it, apparently quite a few do not. It wasn't so bad, a bit overwhelming at first, but there are some aspects that I like about the school.

I'm Getting Married Today.

2011-06-11T05:08:00.000-07:00

As I say that, so many emotions run through my head, I cannot believe in just a few hours I will be saying I do. I'm excited, happy, emotional, and yes Nervous. Okay I said it, Yes I am highly nervous as hell.

Sean and I decided we will not see each other till the ceremony, it's strange so strange because we are hardly ever apart and to know he's just across the yard is killing me. It will be awesome though when he see's me.

Although it will be raining, I don't care, I wont let it get me down. I will have an epic wedding that's for damn sure.

By 2:00pm today june 11th 2011 I will be Jennifer Marie Vadnais.............

My Little Boy-More like My little Monster!

2011-06-01T18:14:00.000-07:00

Joshua has defiantly developed his own little rebellious personality, kind of feel like I'm already going through the terrible two's. Really working on this no biting thing, so far mommy Zip and Josh 100 wins. I think I have tried everything, so far no attempts are working. Maybe if I keep at it, he will get the hint but for now, I have to watch him closely or he sneaks up behind me and bites the back of my leg, crazy little monster he is lol. But he's been a cuddle bug lately, has learned to climb on to the couch, and has successfully broke half of the locks on the cupboards.

He rode melody for the first time yesterday, while she was out grazing, sean put him on her back. She stood there grazing away, and she took a few steps for us. She's been a bit hyper due to being on this new high fat grain we have her on, so I dident want to push my luck in case she freaked out. Actually can't wait for after the wedding so I can get in some ride time, she has had way to long of. But I also want to get her back up to 900 pounds before we do some riding. Her arthritis seems to be back under control, less stiff from what I have noticed. But she lost a bit of weight this winter, back to 872. So frustrating, but i noticed she did this the year b

efore as well. Makes me wonder if thats kind of why her old old owners let her go down to so much weight, maybe they just dident feed her enough and through the winter they couldn't keep up.

She sure is a hard-keeper feed wise. But well worth it, just hope she's not a crazy uncontroablle horse when I get back on her for some rides this summer. We shall see though!

Ten day's till my wedding and I cannot wait to be MRS.

VADNAIS.......................

17 Day's and Counting.

2011-05-25T10:13:00.000-07:00

AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH! Sorry just had to get that out, so I have 17 day's until my wedding and I am going crazy. Have been telling everyone I am not stressed out, but I am, I'm crazy stressed out. I have so much on my mind, that I am suffering from sleep Apena again, which causes me to stay up most of the night and then I just want to sleep all day. In order to combat my tiredness I have resorted back to Dr.pepper which I now feel like I gained a few pounds back, which scares the crap out of me, because I have no choice but to hope to god my dress wont be to tight. There are some thing's on my dress that i'm eh about, but to save myself the money I just said fuck it, and left it be.

I can't decide on a stupid hair do and have went through I don't know 1,000 pictures now, and have some what narrowed it down to three. I'm panicking because I don't know what my hair will do and if my hairstylist can make it look good and if I even have the money to pay her. I'm at the end of my budget and I have no more room to add in any extra cost's.

Why do wedding's have to be so stressful? Sometimes I think I should have just did it the easy way, and went to the court house and be done with it. But I know deep down if I had done that I would have missed out on

the whole happiness with being able to share my love

with the family, well my family, who the fuck knows if Sean's family is happy about the whole things, I really don't even want to get into that, just fuels my anxiety even more..............

Okay, okay enough complaining I promise!

Baby Kitty's are doing good, growing fast and getting big. All have their eye's open.

Josh has finally got walking down for a good couple weeks and now cruises everywhere.

A Mother's Day Surprise- Kittens, 26 Day's till the Wedding.

2011-05-16T16:25:00.000-07:00

Tabby had her baby's last Sunday on mother's day, have to say it was one of the best things I could have asked for. Everything went well, and we had five healthy little baby kittens. Three day's after Samantha followed with Five of her own baby's. Most are going to Farmers around the area as good hunting cat's, of course they were promised to be fixed, and a few I hope will be going to good family homes, to be loving family cats, and I may even keep one lol. I fell in love with a little grey one I have dubbed Moonshine! it's a feisty one, but at the same time lazy, always catching it either sleeping or resting against one of it's siblings to eat, or fighting of one of it's siblings to get the best boob, what a character.

Twenty-Six day's until my wedding, it's really getting down to the last few day's. Most of everything is done, thank god now it's just paying for everything. Gosh I went way over my budget by like 3,000 i think in total spending close to Five grand already, Yikes. Thank goodness for my parents, cause I'd never be able to do it.

Quit my Job yesterday, just tired of the lame ass hours with no pay raise and being treated like one of the 17-18 year olds. I dident go to college for three years to put up with that crap, no way in hell! Sean say's we will make it, and that he payed our bills by himself for four years, he can do it again. We want me to concentrate on my school, 7 months and I will have a real career with good pay and benefits, hopefully everything falls into place and things get better cause financially we do suffer but as long as our son is happy, I can do without things.

I think I splurged a little to much on the wedding, but besides that fact it's my first and only wedding to the man of my dreams, I want it to be special, a day to remember for Sean, Me, and our son.

Oh I found a fantastic Sim's 3 story, it's awesome and actually written quite well: http://blazelegacy.wordpress.com/

If Sims 3 is your thing and you like well written story's she's your gal!

Six Weeks Till My Wedding.

2011-05-02T16:40:00.000-07:00

Six weeks till my wedding, can't believe how close it is, I still have so much to do and so little time. Went way over the budget that I wanted to stick with, but thank god for my parents who offered to pay for the tent/tables/chairs, my dress and all the catering. Now I just have the odds and ends to pay for.

Melody's doing good, she's been out in the other pasture getting some excersize instead of sitting in her stall all day which she would rather do. Hoping to ride her after the wedding and when things start to dry up. I'm hoping she wont act up to much and rides just as smooth as she had last year. Right now she's a bit sassy, but i can tell she's feeling good, lot less stiff. I have a few more supplements I want to try, but I'll have to wait for that.

The barn cats are pregnant, so we should have baby kitty's running around in the next few weeks, stupid tom cat caught them, told my parents they needed to get the girls fixed but they dident think they could get pregnant till they were a year old. I'll defiantly be taking them in to get fixed after they have the baby's. Really don't need 100 cats around especially when the lady down the road breeds her's for fun and lets them run around the neighborhood, most getting hit by cars or killed by dogs sadly. I have a couple good homes lined up already thank god, so shouldn't be a problem to find loving homes.

My son's getting so big 15 months old and almost walking. He's such a ham always laughing. He can be a little butt though, he went from hitting me to biting me now, ugh hopefully we can get him to cut that out. He weighs 24 pounds, and is so very tall, gonna be a big boy.

Planning on going to Ross medical June 20th to become a medical assistant. Just so tired of fudging around in college and getting no where. I'd like a good paying job, with some benefits so I can buy a horse and hopefully if my sons interested in horses a good riding pony. Even if he's not I might look at another OTTB and then fully retire my mare... I just need to keep my hopes up and hang on and hopefully things will all line up and be okay. Just have to keep faith!!

Goodbye Pony!

2011-02-03T09:12:00.000-08:00

I sold Princess on Tuesday to a really nice girl who needed her for a companion for her Mare, and wanted to use her as a cart horse. I am beyond excited, means I now only have to worry about my mare melody which makes it so much easier on me in so many ways. Now don't get me wrong i enjoyed Princess's company, but she never liked to be pet, and never liked to be groomed, which really hurt our relationship because the only way to bond was if i could touch her and she hated to be touched.

Melody was a bit upset that she was gone, but so far she has seemed to get over it fast, and now has the whole barn to enjoy to herself. It will be a bit easier to ride her now, because she wont have so much anxiety to be away from her buddy. Can't wait to start riding again. Hoping this summer i will get in so much more riding time then I had last summer!!!!

Happy First Birthday Joshua Michael.

2011-01-27T19:16:00.000-08:00

Wow, my son is a year old today. I can't believe how fast he has grown. Exactly a few minutes ago I had held him in my arms after two hours of pushing. It's amazing to think of this past year, the learning on how exactly to be a parent, but you know it just came so natural to me. Yes there are a few things i wish i could have done different, but i really would not change much. My son is wonderful, healthy, and a joy to be around. He makes me smile, and he is so intelligent, and so advanced congninitive wise that it over joy's me to know he wont struggle in his future as much as i had.

I can't wait for this summer so he can run and play in the grass, actually ride Melody this time, and enjoy the outdoors as much as his mom and dad do.

I am so pleased to be a mother and to have my son in my arms each day, to be able to hug him, and kiss his little cheek. There are not enough words to describe just how much i love him!

Becoming Someone New/ Saying Goodbye

2011-01-14T17:55:00.000-08:00

Well things have been happening fast these past few months, forgot about my blog once again. I really suck at these things, lol. I got all A's and B's in my fall classes, which makes me so proud of myself. I have never done better and I have so much motivation to continue succeeding. I want the best for my son, and i want to become a social worker as soon as possible so i can start helping others like i feel i have always been meant to do.

Finally set a wedding date for June 11th 2011 a couple months ago, so short notice and now i have four months and 4 weeks before i become Mrs. Vadnais. It's so un real, i have waited Five long years to marry my best friend, the love of my life, the father of my son and it's finally going to happen. We have never been better in our relashionship and have grown so strong as parents. I'm so ready to become his wife and get a place of our own!

I also got a new job and Chuck E' Cheeses, can't say it's the best job ever money wise but i like it, I work with some great people who i appreciate so much for their kindness. It's a start and at this point ill take anything because jobs are very limited in Michigan.

Unfortunately my parents have come to the descion that they are selling the farm and my heart hurts so much. I grew up here, I raised my son in his first year of life here. I have my horses here. Which comes to the saddest part of all, having to say goodbye to most if not all my animals.

Princess the pony will be the first to go I just cannot afford boarding for two horses, my budget is so very tight as it is. Second will go the rabbits, and third will go maybe my beloved Dog Dakota who may be going to my best friend. I have so many fond memory's and i cry all the time.

Everyone wants me to let go of Melody to, but i can't, I love her so much and i promised her I'd always give her a home always. I hope to find an affordable boarding barn and i really hope to get her arthritis under control so i can actually start working with her. But i fear my money will fall short and i wont be able to board her and i will have to sell her. I just can't my bond with her is too tight and she has been from one home to the next most of her life. I want to be with her to her last day. She has given me so much, trust, confidence, love, honor, honesty. She had filled the dark hole in my heart when my OTTB mare died. I don't know what to do, and it hurts.

My family or My horse................I can never not choose my Family they are number one and always will be, but i will fight for my horse and hopefully i find a way to have the best of both worlds.

A Wonderful New Feeling!

2010-08-22T13:25:00.000-07:00

Thing's have been Good, Melody and the Pony have been getting along. Princess is really not what i expected, she is very head shy, more head shy then I have officially thought. We have been working on that, and she's getting to the point where she will let me touch her all over, but she still flinches as if she's just waiting for me to hit her which has be wondering of her past. She is a terrible hard to catch type of pony, oh my god is it frustrating but she has been getting better. I have been using different techniques and i have found that actually following her around she will eventually stop running from me and stand still for me to clip the lead, I do believe she is beginning to realize i will not give up!

I had started riding Melody a month ago, this summer has been to hot so I gave riding her some more time of. But she is doing fantastic, the same good mare I had before having my son. There is some thing i myself as a rider need to work on, but my balance is good, i can ride with confidence and i no longer use my horn as a crutch to hold on while trotting/cantering. It feels great and i can't wait to start working her more this fall when things are cooler, my ultimate goal this fall and winter is to start riding twice and week maybe even three times a week if i can!

My son is getting so big, he's almost 7 months old and such a big boy. 19lbs 1oz, and 27 in long. He can wear 12m clothing, it's crazy how fast he has grown.

Starting fall classes tomorrow, not quite ready but to late to back out.

We also now have to official Barn cats, Tabby and Samantha!

A Happy Monday With Princess!

2010-05-13T20:02:00.000-07:00

I went and saw Princess on Monday, the owner let me spend time with her, which is great because I want to know her personality more. She's very friendly, laid back, a bit shy but that's understandable. I'm a tall person, and she dose not know me very well yet. We worked on picking up all four of her hooves, cleaning them, she could care less which is awesome since cleaning hooves is my least fave job. She cross-ties very well, stands still. I groomed her, and just rubbed my hands all over her to get a feel for how she does.

I can't wait to have her home in my own barn, I have so many things i want to get started on. I defiantly want to see how Melody does, I'm praying they get along but I'll take it slow.

It's been raining everyday so i haven't been able to ride Melody yet. I'm itching to see how we do this year, I really want to start riding her two times a week to get her back in riding shape, but this weather needs to get better. The paddock is a mess, I have projects for the barn needing to be done but until it drys up i don't see that happening.

jv

My Son and My new Pony Princess!

2010-05-10T11:57:00.000-07:00

I haven't updated in quite a while, life got ahead of me as usual. My son was born Jan 27th at 10:13pm weighing 8lbs, 7oz, 22 1/2 in long. He was healthy and screaming, telling everyone of his entrance into the world. He is now three months old and so handsome. He has been teething lately so he has been a bit upset but otherwise always in a good mood and smiling. I think he is going to crawl early, he shows signs of wanting to. Being a mommy is the best thing ever in the whole world.

I'm also getting a 12 year old mini/Shetland pony mare sometime in the next few days, maybe this weekend if the lady can trailer. She's so sweet and beautiful, i can't wait to bring her home to meet melody. I'm hoping the two hit it of and become good friends. She's a bit head shy but nothing i cannot handle. She's not broke but that dosent matter to me, I'd rather have a sweet natured pony. I want to work with Melody and get her muscles back that she lost from being of, don't really need two riding horses.

30 Weeks Pregnant/Melody ready for winter.

2009-11-20T12:01:00.000-08:00

Well I made it, 30 weeks pregnant and 10 more weeks to go. It has been amazing watching my belly grow, feeling my son's kicks and hiccups. It's been a journey I shall never forget. I cannot wait till January when i can finally hold Joshua in my arms, to dress him in all his clothes. He's going to be my little cowboy, i can't wait to start looking for the perfect horse for him, at least i hope he shows some interest in horses. I lost my riding partner the day i lost Asinaway, so i hope my son can replace Sean in my hobby of horses and who knows maybe Sean will get back into it.

Melody's doing great, fat and ready for winter. Her stiffness seems to be doing much better, i can't wait to open her up next summer. I haven't seriously ridden a horse in 8 months and it's driving me crazy. I'm hoping when i do get on her she's the same horse as before, but she's my good girl and i know she will.

Monday will be the one year anniversary of Asinaways death. I can't believe it has been that long already, it seems like yesterday almost. I'm doing okay this year, i haven't shed a tear yet but i know i will. I just miss her so much.

Well that's about all i wish to share today, I'll probably write on monday.

-Jennifer

12 weeks and counting and Melody reachs 900 Pounds!

2009-07-16T20:04:00.000-07:00

The baby at 7 or 8 weeks!

Lately as i have been watching my belly grow and my pants getting tighter, i get even more excited that it will finally be my turn to be a mom. I have always watched family members give birth and experience the wonderful world of parenthood and i have always said i can't wait for it to be me.

I have been through a lot in life, and just knowing That a tiny little baby is growing inside me makes me smile. I have yet to hear it's heart beat but my doctor assures me it's still early, and that soon i will be able to. I just can't wait to feel it kicking so that i know it's doing okay in there. I'm 12 weeks, and it feels good knowing i am almost to my second trimester. I just want to hold my child in my arms so bad, but it has some growing to do before it's ready to meet the world.

My morning sickness has finally started to go away and my doctor wants me to gain 1 to 3 pounds by my next appointment since i had lost four pounds. I hope i can do it, lol i sure do eat a lot.

On other news My good girl Melody has reach 900 pounds which is exciting. I'm so happy, i couldn't stop smiling. So we celebrated by riding her, lol. Well i dident but my friend did, ok i won't lie i hopped on once and walked around, shhh don't tell.

So i feel pertty good, minor aches and pains. I have a couple more weeks till i find out the sex and i cannot wait. All i want though is a healthy baby, i could care less about if it's a boy or girl.

Pregnant and Comet has been sold!

2009-06-09T13:48:00.000-07:00

Things have been looking up, a couple weeks ago i found out i was pregnant. Things have been fine except for part of last week and this week, morning sickness has finally arrived. Ugh, i think i would rather give birth then be sick all the time. It drags me down and i tend to sit inside all day when I'm usually outside doing something or riding, but i have no energy for that and I'm banned from riding because my family said so.

I just have a lot of things to worry about now, and so many questions. My first doctors appointment is Thursday, i honestly can't wait.

I also sold Comet a couple weeks ago, and it happened at such a good time, i defiantly couldn't handle two horses, nor could i afford two especially since Melody is a bit high maintenance with her special feedings but that's ok.

So that's basically all that has been going on, I feel like crap to put it plainly and I'm going to lay down.

I told my child it better be worth it, but of course i already know it is.

Melody Rides English!

2009-05-11T17:33:00.000-07:00

We finally did it, after all the excuses in the world i saddled her up in my Enlgish saddle, and hopped on and actually rode all by myself. I have ridden English before on my mare Asinaway and my friends horse raider but i was on a lead line and led around. I was so nervous, but i knew if i dident do it my dream would never come true. Melody did great, she was a bit jumpy at first, wanted to trot instead of walking, but i talked to her and she calmed right down. Never spooked at the dogs running around her, she could care less about them actually. She was a very good girl, she made me proud today.

I did trot, but only a few strides, i really don't have the leg strength or my post down to trot. I can do it in a weastern saddle but not quite in an Enlgish one. My hope is that by the end of the summer i will be at least trotting, possiably cantering. I think i may see some fall's in my future, lol. I'll have to have sean hook me up to a lunge line and then i work at it, so then i can concentrate on my posting instead of control.

But yes i had to blog about my positive adventure, my dream come true. I thanked my little girl today, and gave her big kisses for allowing me to explore English on her.

My Gift!

2009-05-02T20:37:00.000-07:00

Every day i fall more and more in love with Melody. She truly is a gift from God, he has heard my prayers and sent Melody to cure my broken heart. Every day i see Melody i can't help but smile. After i lost Asinaway i wasn't sure i would be able to love another horse, but melody has proved to me that it's ok. She is so good to me, even today as i was going to put her halter on, she lowered her head for me and put her nose into the halter. She is such a good girl, and proves to me every day that she was worth the long drive. She will forever be my horse, and i swear to her that she will be forever taken care of by me till the day she dies. She will always get fed, and will always get attention, she no longer has to worry about being starved.

I am so very thankful that the girl i bought her from rescued her from that auction, for if she hadent i wouldent be with my wonderful Gift. Melody is so very watchful of me, always watches when i walk behind her, and loves the treats i give her.

I have not been able to ride much due to all the rain, plus she still needs alot of weight so i do not want to push her to much. But i got to ride today, and it is so nice. She lets me work on posting and gose where she knows i want to go. It's wonderful to ride a trained horse.

Bath time and Riding!

2009-04-21T20:06:00.000-07:00

It was so warm on Sat that i was able to give Melody a Bath and i was able to ride on Sunday in a tank top.

I really do dislike shedding season, i had spent forever on grooming Melody and i had handfuls of hair from her. So since it has been muddy also and it was in the 70s i pulled out the hose and shampoo and gave her a bath. I think she appreciated that! She looked great after i was done with her, but she still has a lot more shedding out to do and Weight to gain. I can't wait to see her fully filled out. She is defiantly getting lots of food and i know she is loving that. She loves her grain and calls for it when it is time for dinner.

Sunday i did some more riding, i wasn't able to do it for long because my leg was starting to bother me. I even trotted a bit but had to stop cause my leg started to hurt so i knew that i had to take it slow. I really just wanted to get some more riding time done. Melody did great and i think she even felt that i was in pain cause she really slowed down for me.

She got quite a bit of grazing time on sat and on sun. I let her roam around the back yard (supervised of course) to "mow the lawn" as my dad would put it. She defiantly loved that.

The weekend was sure a teaser but i heard it's supposed to get warm again on Friday, so hopefully i can get some more riding time, since it's been raining for two days straight.

I also got Four new Rabbits, so i can start my breeding project. I have one adult Doe named Lotti!

Well that's about it for now.

First Play day and First time kicked!

2009-04-18T16:57:00.000-07:00

I'm gonna put my post into two parts, to blog about two different events!

Last Saturday was one heck of a day. My best friend Danielle and I decided to do a Play day with Melody and her horse Raider. We put both the mares in the trailer and drove to a fair ground that has some nice arenas that are open to the public. We tacked up, and of course melody stood there like a good girl.

We started riding, and i have to admit i was nervous, although i trust my girl, this was the first time i have ever ridden away from home and in an Arena. I loved it, it felt so good to have a horse that i can ride and feel comfortable on. She did great as usual!

My friend and Raider did good too, Danielle is working on getting her mare ready for open show in a couple months. She wants to show barrels with her. they just need to work on their canter because Raider paces, cause she was a harness racer. But Danielle is a fantastic rider and i know once summer comes and they get more riding time they will do fine.

But of course what comes with the good comes with the bad.

We were coming to an end to our ride and we wanted some pictures togeather. We wanted to get some closer togeather, well that was a bad idea. I think my mare shifted her butt and that made Raider MAD so she full out bucked and kicked out at Melody and me. Well of course i got hit in my right leg. Ouch did that hurt. I was so stunned and so shocked all i wanted to do was get off Melody and sit on the ground. My friends dad had to remind me to breath cause i was hyperventilating from the pain.

I'm so proud of melody tho, instead of taking of, all she did was side step away from Raider and stood there while everyone came to see if i was ok. she even stood there while Danielle pulled me out of the saddle and carried me to the car. What a good girl she was.

My friends mom drove me to the ER because i bleeding from a nice size gash in my leg. nothing was broken thank god, but i got seven stitches and i have a big abrasion and tons of bruising. I never ever wanna be kicked again that's for sure. But it was an experience and i learned something!

Melody is home

2009-03-20T16:41:00.000-07:00

Wednesday day we took the long trip and picked up Melody, everything went pretty well. She loaded great, which is a plus because in the summer she will be trailering quite a bit, going to the fair grounds so i can practice in the arenas, then going trail riding with my friend and her mare raider.

I love this mare already, she's perfect for me. Calm, i can do just about anything with her and she dosent mind. She's getting along with Comet, he's being a bit hot headed, but he will settle in and i don't think he will be staying long. There is a lady that's really interested in him. She has quite a bit more weight to gain, but she's doing well.

Today i rode Melody for the first time at home. My bit was too big for her so i we just used a halter and my split reins and she actually responded really well. I walked her down the road, and then rode her all the way back home. It was great, she was great. I had so much fun, and when i got back home i trotted and cantered. It felt so good, but I'm a bit sore now.

But that's it for now, I'll update again.

I Met Melody My New Horse!

2009-02-08T20:02:00.000-08:00

Saturday i took the two hour drive to go meet my new possible horse Melody. It was an easy ride, not a lot of traffic. My new GPS did it's job and got us there without any trouble, so that was good. When we got there the girl brought her out from the barn, it was really windy so she had the horses in. I seriously think, i knew it was meant to be as soon as i saw her. I rubbed my hands all over her, tugged on her mane and tail, walked behind her, lifted her hooves and she accepted this all, and even looked to be enjoying me petting her. She stood to be saddled, and accepted her bit. She was perfect with everything, and even though her buddy was in the barn calling for her she dident even try to go back to her, she listend to the girl and me.

Riding her was just as great, i dident ride long because of how windy and cold it was and i dident want to push her to much. She's very slow paced, but when i asked for a trot it dident take much juts a light tap with my foot. Very smooth, i liked it very much. She needs to work on her whoa a bit, but thats not an issue she stops after a few words and aslight pull on the reins.

She stood while i put my english saddle on, even though my girth was to big i just wanted to put it on her and see how she handled it. Of course she did great. she was very calm through the whole ordeal.

All she needs is some love and some more weight put on and she will be completly perfect.

So as of now i have a new horse on the way, probably by the end of the month because we are going to be doing payments on her then we will be bringing her to her knew home. I cannot wait till this summer, to really open her up and see the rest of her potential.

She may be 15 years old but she will be great for me, and i already love her.

So it seems things are starting to turn for the better!

-Jennifer

Saddness

2009-01-31T21:04:00.000-08:00

I seriously need to get myself out of this funk I'm in. I have been so very moody lately and it's starting to affect mine and Sean's relationship. I know what it is and i just have such a hard time talking about because i have trained myself not to. It's just when i do open up i feel like no one is listening to me, and no one understands.

I'm having a really hard time with my Mares Death, and i know she's gone and nothing i will ever do will bring her back. It's been two months now, but i feel like it happened yesterday. Every time i go into her stall i can still picture where i had found her. I know she's in a better place now, and i can come to terms with knowing it was not my fault it was no ones fault, we did what we could. I just miss her, I miss riding her, i miss her kisses and the funny little things she would do. I miss going into the barn at night to bring her in and she would neigh for me, and i just miss those moments i had with her. She brought me so much, she brought such joy into my heart. She gave me the confidence i needed, she was the one i went to when i was sad. I had bonded with her that summer, and i have completed some big milestones with her. Even thought i had let go of her, sometimes i am not sure if i can let go of her fully. I was never good with death, and i don't think i ever will be.

Some may say she was just a horse and that i need to get over this, but to me she wasn't just a horse. She was a big part of my life, and i spent hours with her. She was my baby girl, my princess and i had promised her a forever home.

I think most of these emotions are coming from the fact that i am PMSing (sorry for TMI) and i will be fine in a week, but i just can;t get past the point that i believe no one is understanding me.

I really need to find myself another mare, i know it seems like i'm trying to replace my Girl but i'm not, i'm taking the steps that i need to move on. Which brings me to the fact that i really like this Mare i found, and i really wanna go see her. I have learned a great lesson from this all, and my heart will soon heal, or at least i hope it will.

-Jennifer

Test

2009-01-29T13:35:00.000-08:00

I had a test in my Bio 172 class, boy did i mess up on the whole back page. I froze up and could not remember a single thing i studied. Good thing it was not a high pointed Test or that would have really been bad. I really dislike how hard that class is, i mean it's easy to comprehend but his tests are ridiculous, they are so very hard and usually they are worth a lot so it messes with you GPA. College is so much harder the High school, to bad i wasn't warned.

I found another mare that i really like, her name is Melody and she's a Auction Rescue. She's a 15 year old Bay Quarter Horse ad about 15Hands. Hopefully i can convince my parents to allow one more horse on the property while i am selling my gelding. We are set up for two horses, and it really wont be that bad. I still want this other mare i looked at awhile ago, but she's $700 and i really don't have that much money. Which is a shame because this horse is basically everything i have been looking for in a horse. So we shall see what happens. My parents did say to wait till spring and then perhaps we would seriously look for a horse, but i really miss riding. Not that i can't ride my gelding, it's just i don't trust him and we don't really get along. I was supposed to go riding today and put the English saddle on him, but it's way to cold for me and I'm way to tired to deal with his crap. So i guess this weekend i will go over to the Farm and force myself to ride him and get some pictures.

Hopefully with spring and summer i will have better luck selling him since, that is usually when people are looking for horses. Maybe i will get my horse then, so i guess i need to just relax and wait. Patience is not one of my virtues.

Not to many Exciting things have been happening, same ole same ole life i suppose you could say. So that's about it for today. I'm surprised that I'm keeping this updated, hmm guess that's a good thing.

-Jennifer

Snow!

2009-01-28T10:41:00.000-08:00

Well this shall be my first official post. Things are going pretty good today, except for the fact that it is snowing. Ugh, is winter over yet? It's been a blizzard since this morning, and I don't expect it to be stopping anytime soon. Not to mention it's freezing for once in the apartment, usually i am roasting. Sean and i had a little fight last night, and I'm still not very happy on what i found out. I know we cannot afford the engagement ring that i want, and i am happy being with him, but apparently he wants to wait a year or two, to get married. I'm not quite sure how i feel about that. It just pisses me off when everything goes right for everyone around me, but it seems things just keep going bad for me.

I'm also still not quite over the death of my mare, and I'm even more ticked of that i can't sell my gelding. I really do think i will be stuck with him forever, it was a big mistake to ever buy him, and an even bigger mistake thinking he was trained enough for me to ride and enjoy. I know it's selfish but sometimes i wish he would have died and not Asinaway. I get so many people interested in him, but no one is willing to give him a chance. Seriously at $500 what is there to lose, he is trainable and I'm sure there are far worse horses out there. I'm just tired and sick of people wasting my time.

I suppose this turned more into a rant then anything else but it feel's good to get my feelings out. I just can't wait till March so i can go to Florida, i so need a vacation.

Well that's all for now. I will update later.

-Jennifer