Becoming Someone New/ Saying Goodbye

Well things have been happening fast these past few months, forgot about my blog once again. I really suck at these things, lol. I got all A's and B's in my fall classes, which makes me so proud of myself. I have never done better and I have so much motivation to continue succeeding. I want the best for my son, and i want to become a social worker as soon as possible so i can start helping others like i feel i have always been meant to do.

Finally set a wedding date for June 11th 2011 a couple months ago, so short notice and now i have four months and 4 weeks before i become Mrs. Vadnais. It's so un real, i have waited Five long years to marry my best friend, the love of my life, the father of my son and it's finally going to happen. We have never been better in our relashionship and have grown so strong as parents. I'm so ready to become his wife and get a place of our own!

I also got a new job and Chuck E' Cheeses, can't say it's the best job ever money wise but i like it, I work with some great people who i appreciate so much for their kindness. It's a start and at this point ill take anything because jobs are very limited in Michigan.

Unfortunately my parents have come to the descion that they are selling the farm and my heart hurts so much. I grew up here, I raised my son in his first year of life here. I have my horses here. Which comes to the saddest part of all, having to say goodbye to most if not all my animals.

Princess the pony will be the first to go I just cannot afford boarding for two horses, my budget is so very tight as it is. Second will go the rabbits, and third will go maybe my beloved Dog Dakota who may be going to my best friend. I have so many fond memory's and i cry all the time.

Everyone wants me to let go of Melody to, but i can't, I love her so much and i promised her I'd always give her a home always. I hope to find an affordable boarding barn and i really hope to get her arthritis under control so i can actually start working with her. But i fear my money will fall short and i wont be able to board her and i will have to sell her. I just can't my bond with her is too tight and she has been from one home to the next most of her life. I want to be with her to her last day. She has given me so much, trust, confidence, love, honor, honesty. She had filled the dark hole in my heart when my OTTB mare died. I don't know what to do, and it hurts.

My family or My horse................I can never not choose my Family they are number one and always will be, but i will fight for my horse and hopefully i find a way to have the best of both worlds.