17 Day's and Counting.

AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH! Sorry just had to get that out, so I have 17 day's until my wedding and I am going crazy. Have been telling everyone I am not stressed out, but I am, I'm crazy stressed out. I have so much on my mind, that I am suffering from sleep Apena again, which causes me to stay up most of the night and then I just want to sleep all day. In order to combat my tiredness I have resorted back to Dr.pepper which I now feel like I gained a few pounds back, which scares the crap out of me, because I have no choice but to hope to god my dress wont be to tight. There are some thing's on my dress that i'm eh about, but to save myself the money I just said fuck it, and left it be.

I can't decide on a stupid hair do and have went through I don't know 1,000 pictures now, and have some what narrowed it down to three. I'm panicking because I don't know what my hair will do and if my hairstylist can make it look good and if I even have the money to pay her. I'm at the end of my budget and I have no more room to add in any extra cost's.

Why do wedding's have to be so stressful? Sometimes I think I should have just did it the easy way, and went to the court house and be done with it. But I know deep down if I had done that I would have missed out on

the whole happiness with being able to share my love

with the family, well my family, who the fuck knows if Sean's family is happy about the whole things, I really don't even want to get into that, just fuels my anxiety even more..............

Okay, okay enough complaining I promise!

Baby Kitty's are doing good, growing fast and getting big. All have their eye's open.

Josh has finally got walking down for a good couple weeks and now cruises everywhere.

A Mother's Day Surprise- Kittens, 26 Day's till the Wedding.

Tabby had her baby's last Sunday on mother's day, have to say it was one of the best things I could have asked for. Everything went well, and we had five healthy little baby kittens. Three day's after Samantha followed with Five of her own baby's. Most are going to Farmers around the area as good hunting cat's, of course they were promised to be fixed, and a few I hope will be going to good family homes, to be loving family cats, and I may even keep one lol. I fell in love with a little grey one I have dubbed Moonshine! it's a feisty one, but at the same time lazy, always catching it either sleeping or resting against one of it's siblings to eat, or fighting of one of it's siblings to get the best boob, what a character.

Twenty-Six day's until my wedding, it's really getting down to the last few day's. Most of everything is done, thank god now it's just paying for everything. Gosh I went way over my budget by like 3,000 i think in total spending close to Five grand already, Yikes. Thank goodness for my parents, cause I'd never be able to do it.

Quit my Job yesterday, just tired of the lame ass hours with no pay raise and being treated like one of the 17-18 year olds. I dident go to college for three years to put up with that crap, no way in hell! Sean say's we will make it, and that he payed our bills by himself for four years, he can do it again. We want me to concentrate on my school, 7 months and I will have a real career with good pay and benefits, hopefully everything falls into place and things get better cause financially we do suffer but as long as our son is happy, I can do without things.

I think I splurged a little to much on the wedding, but besides that fact it's my first and only wedding to the man of my dreams, I want it to be special, a day to remember for Sean, Me, and our son.

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Six Weeks Till My Wedding.

Six weeks till my wedding, can't believe how close it is, I still have so much to do and so little time. Went way over the budget that I wanted to stick with, but thank god for my parents who offered to pay for the tent/tables/chairs, my dress and all the catering. Now I just have the odds and ends to pay for.

Melody's doing good, she's been out in the other pasture getting some excersize instead of sitting in her stall all day which she would rather do. Hoping to ride her after the wedding and when things start to dry up. I'm hoping she wont act up to much and rides just as smooth as she had last year. Right now she's a bit sassy, but i can tell she's feeling good, lot less stiff. I have a few more supplements I want to try, but I'll have to wait for that.

The barn cats are pregnant, so we should have baby kitty's running around in the next few weeks, stupid tom cat caught them, told my parents they needed to get the girls fixed but they dident think they could get pregnant till they were a year old. I'll defiantly be taking them in to get fixed after they have the baby's. Really don't need 100 cats around especially when the lady down the road breeds her's for fun and lets them run around the neighborhood, most getting hit by cars or killed by dogs sadly. I have a couple good homes lined up already thank god, so shouldn't be a problem to find loving homes.

My son's getting so big 15 months old and almost walking. He's such a ham always laughing. He can be a little butt though, he went from hitting me to biting me now, ugh hopefully we can get him to cut that out. He weighs 24 pounds, and is so very tall, gonna be a big boy.

Planning on going to Ross medical June 20th to become a medical assistant. Just so tired of fudging around in college and getting no where. I'd like a good paying job, with some benefits so I can buy a horse and hopefully if my sons interested in horses a good riding pony. Even if he's not I might look at another OTTB and then fully retire my mare... I just need to keep my hopes up and hang on and hopefully things will all line up and be okay. Just have to keep faith!!