17 Day's and Counting.

AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH! Sorry just had to get that out, so I have 17 day's until my wedding and I am going crazy. Have been telling everyone I am not stressed out, but I am, I'm crazy stressed out. I have so much on my mind, that I am suffering from sleep Apena again, which causes me to stay up most of the night and then I just want to sleep all day. In order to combat my tiredness I have resorted back to Dr.pepper which I now feel like I gained a few pounds back, which scares the crap out of me, because I have no choice but to hope to god my dress wont be to tight. There are some thing's on my dress that i'm eh about, but to save myself the money I just said fuck it, and left it be.

I can't decide on a stupid hair do and have went through I don't know 1,000 pictures now, and have some what narrowed it down to three. I'm panicking because I don't know what my hair will do and if my hairstylist can make it look good and if I even have the money to pay her. I'm at the end of my budget and I have no more room to add in any extra cost's.

Why do wedding's have to be so stressful? Sometimes I think I should have just did it the easy way, and went to the court house and be done with it. But I know deep down if I had done that I would have missed out on

the whole happiness with being able to share my love

with the family, well my family, who the fuck knows if Sean's family is happy about the whole things, I really don't even want to get into that, just fuels my anxiety even more..............

Okay, okay enough complaining I promise!

Baby Kitty's are doing good, growing fast and getting big. All have their eye's open.

Josh has finally got walking down for a good couple weeks and now cruises everywhere.