Ugh I am close to tears right now, it's horrible. I have been delaying it for months, knowing it was going to have to happen sooner or later.
I put melody up for sale today, only had the heart to do one website for now. I feel pretty shitty right now, because I basically lied to her. I promised her a forever home, and here I am some years later putting her in the classifieds. My money is just so tight right now, and I wont ever be able to afford boarding, it would be impossible. Not to mention when would I even have time to ride her.
I love her so much she has brought such joy to my heart. I have laughed with her, cried with her, smiled with her. She gave me the courage t
o trust again, she filled the hole in my heart that was left after my Asin died.
I will never forget my baby girl, and I can only hope for the rest of her day's she brings joy to some other person, she teaches them the great lessons she has taught me.
I gave her a bath today, and ran around with her. Just thinking soon when she is gone, there will be an empty barn, and it will be so quiet without here. I truly will have nothing left here at this house, and I will be more then ready to say goodbye to it.
My heart is breaking agian, and I'm not ready to say goodbye, but I have no other choice. with trying for another baby and medical school, My baby girl will need to find a new home.
Nothing happy to share in this blog, it was a horrible day all around.
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