30 Weeks Pregnant/Melody ready for winter.

Well I made it, 30 weeks pregnant and 10 more weeks to go. It has been amazing watching my belly grow, feeling my son's kicks and hiccups. It's been a journey I shall never forget. I cannot wait till January when i can finally hold Joshua in my arms, to dress him in all his clothes. He's going to be my little cowboy, i can't wait to start looking for the perfect horse for him, at least i hope he shows some interest in horses. I lost my riding partner the day i lost Asinaway, so i hope my son can replace Sean in my hobby of horses and who knows maybe Sean will get back into it.

Melody's doing great, fat and ready for winter. Her stiffness seems to be doing much better, i can't wait to open her up next summer. I haven't seriously ridden a horse in 8 months and it's driving me crazy. I'm hoping when i do get on her she's the same horse as before, but she's my good girl and i know she will.

Monday will be the one year anniversary of Asinaways death. I can't believe it has been that long already, it seems like yesterday almost. I'm doing okay this year, i haven't shed a tear yet but i know i will. I just miss her so much.

Well that's about all i wish to share today, I'll probably write on monday.

-Jennifer

12 weeks and counting and Melody reachs 900 Pounds!

The baby at 7 or 8 weeks!




Lately as i have been watching my belly grow and my pants getting tighter, i get even more excited that it will finally be my turn to be a mom. I have always watched family members give birth and experience the wonderful world of parenthood and i have always said i can't wait for it to be me.

I have been through a lot in life, and just knowing That a tiny little baby is growing inside me makes me smile. I have yet to hear it's heart beat but my doctor assures me it's still early, and that soon i will be able to. I just can't wait to feel it kicking so that i know it's doing okay in there. I'm 12 weeks, and it feels good knowing i am almost to my second trimester. I just want to hold my child in my arms so bad, but it has some growing to do before it's ready to meet the world.

My morning sickness has finally started to go away and my doctor wants me to gain 1 to 3 pounds by my next appointment since i had lost four pounds. I hope i can do it, lol i sure do eat a lot.

On other news My good girl Melody has reach 900 pounds which is exciting. I'm so happy, i couldn't stop smiling. So we celebrated by riding her, lol. Well i dident but my friend did, ok i won't lie i hopped on once and walked around, shhh don't tell.

So i feel pertty good, minor aches and pains. I have a couple more weeks till i find out the sex and i cannot wait. All i want though is a healthy baby, i could care less about if it's a boy or girl.

Pregnant and Comet has been sold!

Things have been looking up, a couple weeks ago i found out i was pregnant. Things have been fine except for part of last week and this week, morning sickness has finally arrived. Ugh, i think i would rather give birth then be sick all the time. It drags me down and i tend to sit inside all day when I'm usually outside doing something or riding, but i have no energy for that and I'm banned from riding because my family said so.

I just have a lot of things to worry about now, and so many questions. My first doctors appointment is Thursday, i honestly can't wait.

I also sold Comet a couple weeks ago, and it happened at such a good time, i defiantly couldn't handle two horses, nor could i afford two especially since Melody is a bit high maintenance with her special feedings but that's ok.

So that's basically all that has been going on, I feel like crap to put it plainly and I'm going to lay down.

I told my child it better be worth it, but of course i already know it is.

Melody Rides English!

We finally did it, after all the excuses in the world i saddled her up in my Enlgish saddle, and hopped on and actually rode all by myself. I have ridden English before on my mare Asinaway and my friends horse raider but i was on a lead line and led around. I was so nervous, but i knew if i dident do it my dream would never come true. Melody did great, she was a bit jumpy at first, wanted to trot instead of walking, but i talked to her and she calmed right down. Never spooked at the dogs running around her, she could care less about them actually. She was a very good girl, she made me proud today.

I did trot, but only a few strides, i really don't have the leg strength or my post down to trot. I can do it in a weastern saddle but not quite in an Enlgish one. My hope is that by the end of the summer i will be at least trotting, possiably cantering. I think i may see some fall's in my future, lol. I'll have to have sean hook me up to a lunge line and then i work at it, so then i can concentrate on my posting instead of control.

But yes i had to blog about my positive adventure, my dream come true. I thanked my little girl today, and gave her big kisses for allowing me to explore English on her.

My Gift!

Every day i fall more and more in love with Melody. She truly is a gift from God, he has heard my prayers and sent Melody to cure my broken heart. Every day i see Melody i can't help but smile. After i lost Asinaway i wasn't sure i would be able to love another horse, but melody has proved to me that it's ok. She is so good to me, even today as i was going to put her halter on, she lowered her head for me and put her nose into the halter. She is such a good girl, and proves to me every day that she was worth the long drive. She will forever be my horse, and i swear to her that she will be forever taken care of by me till the day she dies. She will always get fed, and will always get attention, she no longer has to worry about being starved.

I am so very thankful that the girl i bought her from rescued her from that auction, for if she hadent i wouldent be with my wonderful Gift. Melody is so very watchful of me, always watches when i walk behind her, and loves the treats i give her.

I have not been able to ride much due to all the rain, plus she still needs alot of weight so i do not want to push her to much. But i got to ride today, and it is so nice. She lets me work on posting and gose where she knows i want to go. It's wonderful to ride a trained horse.

Bath time and Riding!

It was so warm on Sat that i was able to give Melody a Bath and i was able to ride on Sunday in a tank top.

I really do dislike shedding season, i had spent forever on grooming Melody and i had handfuls of hair from her. So since it has been muddy also and it was in the 70s i pulled out the hose and shampoo and gave her a bath. I think she appreciated that! She looked great after i was done with her, but she still has a lot more shedding out to do and Weight to gain. I can't wait to see her fully filled out. She is defiantly getting lots of food and i know she is loving that. She loves her grain and calls for it when it is time for dinner.

Sunday i did some more riding, i wasn't able to do it for long because my leg was starting to bother me. I even trotted a bit but had to stop cause my leg started to hurt so i knew that i had to take it slow. I really just wanted to get some more riding time done. Melody did great and i think she even felt that i was in pain cause she really slowed down for me.

She got quite a bit of grazing time on sat and on sun. I let her roam around the back yard (supervised of course) to "mow the lawn" as my dad would put it. She defiantly loved that.

The weekend was sure a teaser but i heard it's supposed to get warm again on Friday, so hopefully i can get some more riding time, since it's been raining for two days straight.

I also got Four new Rabbits, so i can start my breeding project. I have one adult Doe named Lotti!

Well that's about it for now.

First Play day and First time kicked!

I'm gonna put my post into two parts, to blog about two different events!

Last Saturday was one heck of a day. My best friend Danielle and I decided to do a Play day with Melody and her horse Raider. We put both the mares in the trailer and drove to a fair ground that has some nice arenas that are open to the public. We tacked up, and of course melody stood there like a good girl.

We started riding, and i have to admit i was nervous, although i trust my girl, this was the first time i have ever ridden away from home and in an Arena. I loved it, it felt so good to have a horse that i can ride and feel comfortable on. She did great as usual!

My friend and Raider did good too, Danielle is working on getting her mare ready for open show in a couple months. She wants to show barrels with her. they just need to work on their canter because Raider paces, cause she was a harness racer. But Danielle is a fantastic rider and i know once summer comes and they get more riding time they will do fine.

But of course what comes with the good comes with the bad.

We were coming to an end to our ride and we wanted some pictures togeather. We wanted to get some closer togeather, well that was a bad idea. I think my mare shifted her butt and that made Raider MAD so she full out bucked and kicked out at Melody and me. Well of course i got hit in my right leg. Ouch did that hurt. I was so stunned and so shocked all i wanted to do was get off Melody and sit on the ground. My friends dad had to remind me to breath cause i was hyperventilating from the pain.

I'm so proud of melody tho, instead of taking of, all she did was side step away from Raider and stood there while everyone came to see if i was ok. she even stood there while Danielle pulled me out of the saddle and carried me to the car. What a good girl she was.

My friends mom drove me to the ER because i bleeding from a nice size gash in my leg. nothing was broken thank god, but i got seven stitches and i have a big abrasion and tons of bruising. I never ever wanna be kicked again that's for sure. But it was an experience and i learned something!

Melody is home

Wednesday day we took the long trip and picked up Melody, everything went pretty well. She loaded great, which is a plus because in the summer she will be trailering quite a bit, going to the fair grounds so i can practice in the arenas, then going trail riding with my friend and her mare raider.

I love this mare already, she's perfect for me. Calm, i can do just about anything with her and she dosent mind. She's getting along with Comet, he's being a bit hot headed, but he will settle in and i don't think he will be staying long. There is a lady that's really interested in him. She has quite a bit more weight to gain, but she's doing well.

Today i rode Melody for the first time at home. My bit was too big for her so i we just used a halter and my split reins and she actually responded really well. I walked her down the road, and then rode her all the way back home. It was great, she was great. I had so much fun, and when i got back home i trotted and cantered. It felt so good, but I'm a bit sore now.

But that's it for now, I'll update again.

I Met Melody My New Horse!

Saturday i took the two hour drive to go meet my new possible horse Melody. It was an easy ride, not a lot of traffic. My new GPS did it's job and got us there without any trouble, so that was good. When we got there the girl brought her out from the barn, it was really windy so she had the horses in. I seriously think, i knew it was meant to be as soon as i saw her. I rubbed my hands all over her, tugged on her mane and tail, walked behind her, lifted her hooves and she accepted this all, and even looked to be enjoying me petting her. She stood to be saddled, and accepted her bit. She was perfect with everything, and even though her buddy was in the barn calling for her she dident even try to go back to her, she listend to the girl and me.

Riding her was just as great, i dident ride long because of how windy and cold it was and i dident want to push her to much. She's very slow paced, but when i asked for a trot it dident take much juts a light tap with my foot. Very smooth, i liked it very much. She needs to work on her whoa a bit, but thats not an issue she stops after a few words and aslight pull on the reins.

She stood while i put my english saddle on, even though my girth was to big i just wanted to put it on her and see how she handled it. Of course she did great. she was very calm through the whole ordeal.

All she needs is some love and some more weight put on and she will be completly perfect.

So as of now i have a new horse on the way, probably by the end of the month because we are going to be doing payments on her then we will be bringing her to her knew home. I cannot wait till this summer, to really open her up and see the rest of her potential.

She may be 15 years old but she will be great for me, and i already love her.

So it seems things are starting to turn for the better!

-Jennifer

Saddness

I seriously need to get myself out of this funk I'm in. I have been so very moody lately and it's starting to affect mine and Sean's relationship. I know what it is and i just have such a hard time talking about because i have trained myself not to. It's just when i do open up i feel like no one is listening to me, and no one understands.

I'm having a really hard time with my Mares Death, and i know she's gone and nothing i will ever do will bring her back. It's been two months now, but i feel like it happened yesterday. Every time i go into her stall i can still picture where i had found her. I know she's in a better place now, and i can come to terms with knowing it was not my fault it was no ones fault, we did what we could. I just miss her, I miss riding her, i miss her kisses and the funny little things she would do. I miss going into the barn at night to bring her in and she would neigh for me, and i just miss those moments i had with her. She brought me so much, she brought such joy into my heart. She gave me the confidence i needed, she was the one i went to when i was sad. I had bonded with her that summer, and i have completed some big milestones with her. Even thought i had let go of her, sometimes i am not sure if i can let go of her fully. I was never good with death, and i don't think i ever will be.

Some may say she was just a horse and that i need to get over this, but to me she wasn't just a horse. She was a big part of my life, and i spent hours with her. She was my baby girl, my princess and i had promised her a forever home.

I think most of these emotions are coming from the fact that i am PMSing (sorry for TMI) and i will be fine in a week, but i just can;t get past the point that i believe no one is understanding me.

I really need to find myself another mare, i know it seems like i'm trying to replace my Girl but i'm not, i'm taking the steps that i need to move on. Which brings me to the fact that i really like this Mare i found, and i really wanna go see her. I have learned a great lesson from this all, and my heart will soon heal, or at least i hope it will.

-Jennifer

Test

I had a test in my Bio 172 class, boy did i mess up on the whole back page. I froze up and could not remember a single thing i studied. Good thing it was not a high pointed Test or that would have really been bad. I really dislike how hard that class is, i mean it's easy to comprehend but his tests are ridiculous, they are so very hard and usually they are worth a lot so it messes with you GPA. College is so much harder the High school, to bad i wasn't warned.

I found another mare that i really like, her name is Melody and she's a Auction Rescue. She's a 15 year old Bay Quarter Horse ad about 15Hands. Hopefully i can convince my parents to allow one more horse on the property while i am selling my gelding. We are set up for two horses, and it really wont be that bad. I still want this other mare i looked at awhile ago, but she's $700 and i really don't have that much money. Which is a shame because this horse is basically everything i have been looking for in a horse. So we shall see what happens. My parents did say to wait till spring and then perhaps we would seriously look for a horse, but i really miss riding. Not that i can't ride my gelding, it's just i don't trust him and we don't really get along. I was supposed to go riding today and put the English saddle on him, but it's way to cold for me and I'm way to tired to deal with his crap. So i guess this weekend i will go over to the Farm and force myself to ride him and get some pictures.

Hopefully with spring and summer i will have better luck selling him since, that is usually when people are looking for horses. Maybe i will get my horse then, so i guess i need to just relax and wait. Patience is not one of my virtues.

Not to many Exciting things have been happening, same ole same ole life i suppose you could say. So that's about it for today. I'm surprised that I'm keeping this updated, hmm guess that's a good thing.

-Jennifer

Snow!

Well this shall be my first official post. Things are going pretty good today, except for the fact that it is snowing. Ugh, is winter over yet? It's been a blizzard since this morning, and I don't expect it to be stopping anytime soon. Not to mention it's freezing for once in the apartment, usually i am roasting. Sean and i had a little fight last night, and I'm still not very happy on what i found out. I know we cannot afford the engagement ring that i want, and i am happy being with him, but apparently he wants to wait a year or two, to get married. I'm not quite sure how i feel about that. It just pisses me off when everything goes right for everyone around me, but it seems things just keep going bad for me.

I'm also still not quite over the death of my mare, and I'm even more ticked of that i can't sell my gelding. I really do think i will be stuck with him forever, it was a big mistake to ever buy him, and an even bigger mistake thinking he was trained enough for me to ride and enjoy. I know it's selfish but sometimes i wish he would have died and not Asinaway. I get so many people interested in him, but no one is willing to give him a chance. Seriously at $500 what is there to lose, he is trainable and I'm sure there are far worse horses out there. I'm just tired and sick of people wasting my time.

I suppose this turned more into a rant then anything else but it feel's good to get my feelings out. I just can't wait till March so i can go to Florida, i so need a vacation.

Well that's all for now. I will update later.

-Jennifer